I think I am cursed or my car is cursed

I had an accident a month ago . my car was at body shop almost three weeks . Finally I picked up my car yesterday. I was so happy but it didn’t last long. I was on my way to work . I took Long island express parkway east as usual. My sister told me before I left the house “now on you need to be careful when you drive “ I said you don’t have to tell me that . I was driving 55 miles an hour and the weather was beautiful all the sudden a rock fell out a truck and hit my car . It was like a night mare. I was shocked . I continued to drive but I saw smoke coming from my car and stopped . I called emergency towed truck . The guy took my cat the body shop again . I was so upset because I waited three weeks to pick up my car and after picked up my car only drove half an hour .
I believe that my car is cursed . I am planning to sell my car as soon as possible. I might not buy a new car again .

what a day

Today my aunt moved another apartment and my sister went there to help her . It was a great

experience for me . I had a chance to put myself to my sister shoes . She always complaining

about her life and how hard it is to be a mother. Today I had to cook and helped my nephew do

his homework. It was a very stressful day . Now I realized that being a mother and being

housewife is the hardest job ever.

What goes around comes around

I read a interesting news today . The news in a sad case for some people and in a funny story for others.
To me it is an interesting story . A drunken driver killed a bicyclist riding along a highway outside Boston. So far very usual news. Well The victim , Gary Sanborn , was riding a bicycle because a judge had suspended his license for 10 years after he was convicted for after d w i for the fourth time .
The question is what cause of Gary Sanborn’s dead ? He died because his license suspended and he had to ride a bicycle or drunken driver killed him .To me It is very odd situation that alcohol cause his dead .
I am sure that I will be very careful when I work as a bartender and sell alcohol .

you will make a difference

I regularly donate money fort the Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center Commack. I found out that early detection of breast cancer can save lives. However a lot of women can’t afford hospital expenses, because insurance companies won’t pay most of the part of the expenses . Therefore donation is very important to help breast cancer patients expenses. To me amount of donation is not important . Important thing is to decided to help donation center .
I firmly believe that individual effort save many lives. We can make a difference .

Tonight there was a fire fighter party . Four hundred people attended the party . I worked as a bartender tonight . They were drinking like a fish . It was a crazy party but I had fun . I think they needed relax . The party end at eleven o’clock. . I was so tired . People from the party offered me continue do bartend in their private room that I refused to do that . If I wouldn’t go to school in the morning I definitely would stay . May be next time .

Today I read a story and thought about it all day. I would like to share that story all of you.
Once upon a time , there was a king who was a wise guy . One day a village guy went to the king to ask a a question about freedom.
Village guy: My king Is there freedom in this life?
The king : yes of course !
The king: how many legs do you have ?
Village guy : two
The king : well can you stand on your one leg?
Village guy: yes I can.
The king : now you need to decide which leg are you going to stand on.
Village guy: I decided to stand on my left leg.
Village guy was standing on his left leg .
The king : ok . Now lift your right leg .
Village guy : but it’s not possible . I can’t lift my both leg at the same time .
The king : this is the answer of your question . You are free when you make your first decision but the
rest of your decisions are depends on your first decision .

According to the story we have freedom on our first choices in our life . For example when we decided to get married we are free to choose our spouse, but after getting married you are not free.
For instance you are free to choose a career but you can’t control the rest.

animals need to be survive too

I have been thinking about to be a vegetarian . I realized that killing animals and eat them is not right. All living creatures share the same basic instinct and right, the instinct to survive; to survive and live a happy and fulfilled life. This is a fundamental right . Humans take away this fundamental right from the animals. We torture and wildly kill them so that we might enjoy a meal that an hour or two later we have totally forgotten about. We need to stop to kill animals and consider the horrors that those beautiful , sentient , living creatures have to suffer throughout their short painful lives.
I believe that we don’t have to eat animals to survive our civilization.

why do we have a pet?

Why should people have a pet? There are many reasons that people should have a pet.
First reason is pets can increase a person’s level of activity and stress. Especially elders benefit from pet ownership , . Owning a pet can decrease blood pressure , fight loneliness and depression.
Other reason is to own a pet . Enable a person to become a better person . I think one of the most important benefit. Learning to share love and to improve the personal quality of human life.
Another reason is owning a pet teaches discipline and responsibility to a child . Children can learn how to share their time , savings, and companionship.
I think animals give you one thing better than respect. They give you unquestioning love without doubt. If your boyfriend or girlfriend suddenly take the high road, never fear . ( I
hope Deborah wont read it) if you treat your pet with the respect it deserves and you will be repaid in kind with lifelong attention and affection, especially when you need it most.

if you afraid of to divorce don't get mariied

it was almost four and i had to be at work five o clock. i had to head on the road. there was too much traffic. what a surprize ! it was a rush hour. anyway i sarted to think about divorced couples. increasingly married couples divorce evry year . people think they made a wrong choice so end up to divorce. no one makes a meet someone choice when they meet someone because all relationships are based trust until each party reveals themselves. we can never know someone in a short of time so we have to go on the superficial things like looks and communication until we get to know person's personality. later down the line ,when things do not work out , people then believe their relationship broke up because they were living with the wrong partners whom they should not married , or set up home with. they believe they made a costly 'mistake' and should have known better. i believe that people don't want to take a responsibilities . there is a easy way if it doesn't work out find new one. nobody trying to find the problem. instead of finding a problem to solve they are finding a new soulmate.

to be a human

i woke up and started think about being a human . we have different religion , different spoken language , we want many different things but we have same thoughts, same fears , same worries . people have different paths but we all would like to go to same destination. we all want to arrive the best destination . we all can go to same destination from different way. we only need to understant each other, we need to listen each other .

the world surrounded fight , war hate... i don't know why we can't fit in the world or we fit but we may want to be alone . we are addicted our desires . we always want more and more . we have to control our desires . we need to learn how to live together and share . there is only one world .

to be happy or not

I think most people thinking about happiness all the time . I also thinking about happiness .what is the meaning of happiness ? How can you be happy ?
To me happiness is the most powerful and enjoyable feeling. Happiness is a goal everyone fights to achieve.
I live with my sister and nephew. My sister and her husband divorced two years ago . After her divorce she has left with a big house and large sum of money . With her material gain she is still isn’t happy. Most people would love to be in her shoes ; her friend believe she is lucky . To her , financial gain isn’t what matters . It’s the little things . She would rather have her family than be wealthy and alone. I guess happiness it depends the person. I agree with her. Being happy is as easy as breathing. Finding happiness is like finding yourself. People can’t expect life to give them everything they want or desire . We have to go out and get it ourselves. Happiness is a self
accomplishment that people work for. People choose happiness we have a choice to open our eyes and see it or to let it pass us by.

obesity

I have been thinking that obesity is increasingly uncontrolled and spreads all over the world . We

are out of control . People eat none stop . To me there are several reasons that we are gaining

weight everyday in our lives. Those are food addiction , availability of fatty foods and of course

life style. Food addiction is likely to exist in some people . It might be a factor that , there are lots

of foods and drinks so we can’t resist. Such as soft drinks , dessert , and fast food etc. with a fast

food restaurant on every corner , with microwaves and frozen foods , all of us can obtain a warm

delicious meal with in seconds. I work food and beverage department so I am able to eat many

kinds of food. Most of them unbelievable delicious . Especially desserts are so good.. Later on I

found out that the foods we have today are chemically engineered to taste extremely delicious. I

think we should quit eating fast food and start to cook healthy food at home .

Laboring jobs are being increasingly done by machines, so most of us have jobs in the

technological society . We sit at computers for ten to twelve hours a day eat junk food and

burning no calories.We need to survive but we need to exercise to live healthily . There are

several reasons to gaining weight but to me it’s a choice to be fat or not.

sleepy day

It was difficult to wake up . I can’t stand to wake up early when the weather is cold. I felt like

doing nothing. So , the day started poorly . It was an ordinary boring day . To do things like

usual. Only difference is the date . I didn’t have to work after school, so I spent time with my

nephew all afternoon .I promised that I go to bowling with him . Then we went to bowling center

and had a good time . We stayed there all night long. It was time to go back to home . We arrived

home around nine o clock. The day started poorly , but got better

Long Day

I got up 7 : 00 am . I took a shower and shaved . I did not have a time to have a breakfast as usually. I just
have a cup of coffee . After school I took a nap , before I went to work . I needed to loosen up and stopped
by my friend’s house and stayed there for two hours . I came home at midnight I wanted to watch one of
the movie that I like. I had couple two bottles of corona . I really needed after stressfully work . Some
time alcohol help to relax if you know your limit. I went to bed around 12:30 am.

stress

i have been thinking about stress . why do we have strees ? is there any medicine exist ? people try to create their own "medicine" sometimes with alcohol , drugs, etc but it doesnt help at all.
stress is part of in our life. we should learn how to live with stress.
people spend money , time , energy to control stress but at the end stress control us.
more over stress help us to focus our problems . it helps to find ourself . show us our position in our life.

close your eyes to see the true love

i met a couple at work who were blind.i admire them a lot that how much they love each other without seeing each other. they told me that they have been married almost five years. they are naturally blind . they told me that they love each other to death .

i think that if we want to find true love we should close our eyes and look at with our hearts. our

hey blind

this earth this sky this stars is illusion
forget everything and think about the love
find your true love
there is only think is real in this world is eternity love

regrets and dissapointments

i left work at nine pm . when i got home i looked at my pictures from last summer vacation . every time i look at my picture that i feel like living that moment . i got engaged last summer and most of the my pictures belongs me and my ex fiancee. i was dissapointment that she was not a right person . i thought she is . i really loved her to death. i thought if i wouldnt be engaged i would be regret but now i am dissappointed .


i believe that regret is much stronges negative feeling than dissapointment . i would prefer to be regret than dissapointment. if i dont try i always will be regret if i try even if i am dissapointed i could fix the problem . i am dissapointed that my ex fiancee is not a right person but i can still have a chance to find my soulmate.

can you see other side the world?

i went to work at four o clock . there was a party . party about disable people. it was very emotional party . i stop working in a moment and just watched disable poeople and started think about people who are complain about their life people who are making big deal the small problems.

i saw people that they only can move their head but they are still happy and appriciate to be alive . this is other side the world that most people can not see it . we need to stop to complain
and be appriciate to be alive . if there is a problem , there is always answer to solve our problem .

life is too short to worry

mirrors

When i wake up in the morning first thing to do is looking at at the mirror . I see good looking

face all the time . One day i thoght that what i see is real or just i see what i want to see . It was

creepy when i fist time thought about it. Most people think that they are good looking when they

look at the mirror. i might be one of them . Later on i thoght that we are not just looking our

body , our face , our appearance , we also see our personality in the mirror. I think if we are

happy with ourselves we see good looking face in the mirror if we are not happy we see ugly face

in the mirror . In other words our emotion changes our face every day in the mirror. I think i

should carry mirror everyday to see my emotions.

to be lonely

i was
on my way to home from work . i took long island express parkway west . there was no one

on the highway somehow i started to think about lonely people or feel like lonely. can you

describe to be loneleness? what is the meaning of to be lonely. it is a mute life or too much noise

but you only hear your voice .

being lonely may be , when you are happy that you want to share your feelings and there is no

one big disappointment or when you are sad you can not find a shoulder to put your head . to me

people choose to be loneliness. i see people choose to stay away from other people and choose a

quiet life . i do not understant these kind of people , but i respect that there is always good

reason to be lonely.

destiny

today was my off day but i got a phone call and my manager asked me to cover one of the server

shift. i wouldnt say no . right after left my house i got an accident . i got hit by big truck. it was

not major an accident but my car damaged . so after i got the report from the police officer i

thought that if i would not go to the work i wouldnt have an accident . somehow i wasnt mad

because i thought logicall that accident also part of our lives . it would be worse . i am glad that i

did not get injured. life is good any way.